We have decided that even though we are sad he's not here, we are going to celebrate today. We are going to celebrate the birth of our first child, our only son. We are going to be grateful for that precious baby who made us parents. His two weeks were a gift, and for that we are thankful.
While I have been anxious in anticipation of today, I have felt a peace that only God can give. I have been overwhelmed by all of the emails, texts, cards, and thoughtful gifts. Thank you for blessing us, and thank you for celebrating Thomas's sweet life with us.
I have been able to smile and laugh a little today too, which has been good. And of course I have cried. How could you tie birthday balloons to your child's gravestone without crying? We were able to find humor in the awfulness of it all, though. I was trying to take a picture, and TJ was trying to wrangle the balloons in the wind. We were fussing trying to get things "just right," like we probably would at a real birthday party. It was one of those "What on earth are we doing? Whose life is this, again?" moments.
But its ok. This is our family, and this is our story. And we are so proud to have Thomas as a part of it!
"Our hearts ache, but we always have joy." 2 Corinthians 6:10, NLT
It's so hard to believe it's been a year. I'm sure he's having a wonderful party with the Lord! Happy Birthday Thomas. We love you Dr Behm!
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing. I send my love to the three of you.
ReplyDeleteLaura crane
Thomas has had such an impact on so many lives, and everyone who knows you and TJ, see you both as the strongest and sweetest people ever! Thomas is so lucky to have you as his parents. Love you both!
ReplyDeleteSorry, that was from Ellie :)
DeleteAwww sweet Behm family... I know that your heart's ache... but this same ttradition on Isaacs earthly and heavenly birthday warms my heart. God bless. I said a special prayer for you today!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your heartache. I am thinking of you guys on this special day. I never met Thomas but he holds a special place in my heart. I hope God blesses you two with strength and lots of love.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to your sweet boy!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm crying and smiling as I read this. Happy birthday, Thomas. Through you, your mother has taught me so much compassion and grace. You are a blessing.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to Thomas! God is certainly still using Thomas to touch the lives of others. Thank you so much from Tommy and Brittany Beyer.
ReplyDeleteI am always amazed at how strong the two of you have been through it all. My thoughts and prayers will always be with y'all and Thomas this time of year!
ReplyDeleteLove,
The Broderick's